Monday, December 29, 2008

I don’t understand suffering.

I read Paul's words rejoicing in his suffering for the Church, I gaze upon Christ crucified and well I just don’t get it. I’ve never had the sort of ah ha understanding I did when I read John 3:16 and I understood that Jesus’ mission was to repair the damage done in the garden.

Nevertheless, I am committed to Christ and willing to accept that my blind spot on this issue is just that, MY blind spot not a defect in the Church’s teaching. So fumbling along like an unsteady toddler trying to learn how to walk I’ve been trying to learn to “offer up” my suffering to the Lord.

So what constitutes suffering I ask myself?

Well, when my arthritic hip hurts that’s suffering.

Good, good. OK, every time my hip hurts I’ve thanked God and offered the pain for the conversion of the world.

And that feels like the most unnatural thing in the entire world. Odd in the extreme, but a funny thing has happened. My hip has stopped hurting. It wasn’t what I asked for when I prayed but it’s a pleasant side effect.

So now I’ve got another mission. I’m a bit of a glutton, bottom line, I eat way more than I need. Nothing much has convinced me to give up this vice, though I would like to. It’s something I’ve been wrestling with for several years. A bad habit that’s good and dug in.

Does suffering when I give up that chocolate crispy Santa count in God’s economy of suffering for the salvation of souls, or is that simply self indulgent wishful thinking? I’m really not sure, but I’m handing that suffering over to God to do with what he wishes. It’s a far greater motivator than anything I’ve ever tried.

So why babble on publicly about this topic I don’t quite understand? Well, because today I read this post about a pro-choice woman blogging with glee about her abortion. (H/T to The Raving Theist by way of The Curt Jester ).

Today as I suffer through the trials of not stuffing my face with everything I see I’m offering up that sacrifice to God and asking for this woman’s conversion. In fact I believe I’ll offer up the entire experience of breaking the gluttony habit to the salvation of the souls of anyone touched by abortion.

Forgive us Lord for not welcoming the little children. Amen.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Santa Clause is Coming to Town

I have always loved the Norad Santa Tracker system. Having a kid makes it even more fun. Check out the Santa videos too.

Speaking of which I’m not sure who is more excited, Hubby or the Boy. Hubby has a grand scheme to put a ladder up the roof and drop a 2x4 right outside the Boy’s room, then shake some bells and Ho, Ho, Ho through the yard. He was so excited about it this morning he had goose bumps. He had hoped to climb onto the roof and walk across for greater authenticity, which if we didn’t have a sheet of ice on everything would be doable. Mrs. Clause, not wanting to spend time in the ER on Christmas Eve put the kibosh on the whole mashugga affair.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Country Livin' Christmas Tour

I'm joining in Boo Mama's Christmas Tour, Hooked on Holiday House Tours, Rhoda at Southern Hospitality and A Soft Place to Land. It’s kind of a home tour a poloza. Come on in and have a look!

Welcome to the farm. We’ve got plenty of room for company and it’s always a good time to stop by.

Take off your coat and stay a while.

Come on in and sit by the fire. It’s cold out there!!

I’ve decorated the timbers up high in the air.

And Our Lady’s rosary room has a certain flair.

A little touch here and a little touch there.

After we visit I’ll get the table prepared. We’ll have something yummy to keep us all warm.

Before we head back out in the storm!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Thank you for stopping by. May the birth of our Lord and his promise of salvation bring you peace.

7 Quick Takes - The Snow Bound Edition

Jen at Conversion Diary is hosting another Quick Takes Friday. Click on over and join the fun.


I don’t get Twitter. I feel like I’m at the tower of babble when I’m on their site.


I’m not a fan of old movies, but I watched The Bells of St. Mary’s the other day anyway. It was the longest two hours of my life.

Want to see the frantic increase in the pace of our lives over the last fifty years? Watch a half hour of an old black and white movie, or even a sitcom like Mayberry RFD, and follow it immediately by a half hour of say The Sarah Conner Chronicles.

Is it really all that surprising that ADHD is a problem? If the programming we watch is presented in ADHD format is it really such as surprise that kids respond to life in an ADHD way?

What I’m wondering is how much of the current frantic pace of our culture is media driven, how much is market driven, to what degree are we simply lemmings in the pipeline, and if in fact we are lemmings, in who’s pipeline?

Who exactly is setting the pace of my life, and if it’s a bit to chaotic how do I wrestle back control?


And speaking of media influence and the culture at large I loved this article by Cheeky Pink Girl Hanna Montana - Embryonic Kiddy Porn. I especially loved the photos she has of Marsha Brady and Hanna Montana child “icons” of their respective ages.

She points out that Marsh Brady looks like an awkward teen and Hanna Montana looks like a soft porn star. I’ve been mulling over the comparison ever since I read the article.

Seriously, would Marsha Brady have done a semi nude photo shoot for a men’s mag? I think not. Even if she had considered such a thing, at least Alice would have the decency to put a stop to it.


The boy (our recently adopted ten year old son) is making a play for a sibling. He thinks a boy around his same age would do the trick nicely. We’ve been scoping out the Adopt US Kids web site and have inquired about a few of the children. We’ve been cautioning him that it can be a very slow process, but he’s full steam ahead.

Raymond's (the boy pictured here) profile ends with this:

“Raymond says it is getting harder to keep hopeful about finding a forever family. Raymond has siblings that are adopted and hopes his new family will help him keep in contact with them.”

Put yourself in their shoes for a few moments this Christmas season and please remember to pray for children who are in need of forever families.


And along the adoption of foster children lines….

Home for the Holidays is airing its 10 anniversary episode on CBS next Tuesday at 8:00pm.

I watched two years ago and it is as cute a tear jerker as can be. I couldn’t watch last year, we had too many adoptions fall out and my heart was too broken.

I think we will all watch together this year. Who knows maybe we’ll find Chris’ sib(s) right on national TV.


I would like to become a gracious hostess, but I don’t exactly know how. I’m unsure of what is typical or customary in terms of food, or entertainment. I’m not sure how to bring people together to get to know one another, like say the neighbors I’ve lived next to for the last twelve years, only two of whom I’ve ever met.

Of course when I say next to I’m talking a quarter mile down the road or more, but still.

And what about business associates, do ya just throw everyone together in one room and sit there awkwardly? Are there any activities that are good ice breakers? How about conversation starters?

Hubby and I have been working non stop for the last couple of decades and well I’m ready for a bit of community.

So how do I get there from here?


I created a bucket list the other day:

1 Permanently loose 15 to 20 lbs. I’m sick and tired of being chubby.
2 Learn how to play piano.
3 Learn how to speak Spanish (properly).
4 Take one of Steve Ray's pilgrimages to Israel. Our Parish has one tentatively scheduled for January 2010, and I'm so there!
5 Learn how to garden in Michigan. It’s way different from California and I’ve never gotten the hang of it.

It’s a pretty short list, I should be able to do this stuff!!!

Well we’re crazy snow bound today so the boy and I will be baking up a storm this afternoon. Not so sure that will help with losing the baby fat, ah well it’s Christmas.

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Friday, December 12, 2008

7 Super Quick Takes – The Gratitude Edition

Jen at Conversion Diary is hosting another episode of 7 quick takes.


I’m grateful for orthodox Catholic bloggers that remind me that I’m not alone in a cafeteria of dissent.


I’m grateful for Hubby who’s been by my side in good times and bad for 18 years as of December 22nd.


I’m grateful for his conversion to Christ only a few months after mine.


I’m grateful for the blessing of our son. I had yearned for a child for so long I had almost given up hope, but 2008 was the year everything changed.


I’m grateful that our son still believes in Santa. This Christmas will be our best ever.


I’m grateful for the Christian school in our community, and I’m grateful for our Priest who suggested I consider a Christ centered Protestant school over the Catholic in name only alternative.


I’m grateful that there is another 4th grade boy from our Parish at our son’s school. They are quickly becoming fast friends and the warmth of parish life I recall from childhood is all coming back to me as our son and his friend carpool from school to CCD, see each other at Mass each Sunday and at Feast days and are planning to become alter servers together.

Thank you Lord for these and all the blessings you pour into my life.